EARLY. I've been getting up around 7 recently, but seriously, why would I ever need to get up at 6:15, and then stay awake? The animals were insistent that I wake up, and as soon as I had, they disappeared. Which is unfar. And not nice. And bad. However, I have already found a movie trailer that looks somewhat funny, and a piece of Rowan Atkinson's old stand up, which is not an awful way to start the day, even if it's being started about an hour and a half too early.
23:23 - 1 small chicken fried rice, 3 wontons, a Propel, and a Pepsi
I had the strangest thoughts driving home today. I think it bothered me more because I almost had to focus on it. I could try looking at the road, but eventually, it came back to the front. Would my grandfather be proud of me? Would he be proud of the person I am now, or who I'm trying to be? I honestly don't know. What bothered me the most, and admittedly still bothers me, is the tiny voice that told me, and keeps telling me, that he wouldn't be. It lends itself to bigger questions, like where I'll go when I die. I make jokes about religion, because I don't really trust it. But spiritually, where am I? Am I safe? What if I'm not?
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